I remember a recent scenario vividly: I was taking a radical step of faith, I mean the kind of step that you’d take that will make your heart beat faster. In my mind, if God doesn’t help me then I’m finished cos I have no second option. I was on my way to take this HUGE step, when a LOUD thought came to my mind “aren’t you even tired?’. Recognizing that to be the devil, I laughed happily and responded “honestly I’m not 🙂 “.
Few weeks later, I was getting ready to go to church and something dropped in my mind again “keep an open mind”, I quickly recognized it was in relation to what I was believing God for. I meditated on it again “keep an open mind” and quickly interpreted it to myself to mean: “As much as you trust God to fulfil His promise to you, also consider other options”. My first reaction to this, I’ll confess, was a bit aggressive “No, I’ll not keep an open mind. Not in this situation. If the will of God was unknown then I’d keep an open mind but that’s not the case right now”.
Despite my ‘gragra’, I kept meditating on the phrase cos truthfully it made sense. But here’s the thing: the more I thought about it, the more hopeless I became. Then a scripture came to my rescue “Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him”. I thought about this a while and realized that it’s the direct opposite of ‘keep an open mind’. But there was still a struggle in my mind. Like everyone else, my mind doesn’t struggle with sensible things like ‘keep an open mind’ but when it comes to ‘trusting God when things make no sense’, then you can be sure I’d have a struggle. All this happened in church, by the way.
Then I got home and realized I was nearing depression cos I had been thinking about ‘keep an open mind’. I wasted the whole of my Sunday agreeing with this and even justifying it “is it not even better to keep an open mind, realistically speaking? Have I not been believing God for a while? Has anything happened yet? Why should I keep believing when I can just keep an open mind?”. I thought about this all Sunday. Don’t be shocked, I was unhappy. Cos the Bible clearly says that ‘joy is found in believing’ and I wasn’t believing 🙁 .
Thankfully, I made it till Monday. LOL. While getting ready for work, I decided to let go of ‘keep an open mind’, it was doing more harm than good, and secondly, resume my mind renewing daily exercise: meditating on the word. While in the car, I was meditating on one verse from the Bible but it was something else that kept coming to my mind “even now”. I remembered it was from the part of the Bible when Lazarus died. I was like ‘oh-ok’. When I thought of “even now”, I vividly remembered how Martha had reached out to Jesus about Lazarus’ failing health. She had expected that Jesus would show up ‘in time’ to save her brother. But this didn’t happen. I could imagine she stayed at the door hoping to see Jesus approaching. I also imagined she wondered if Jesus didn’t get the message she sent about Lazarus? This was Lazarus, the man whom Jesus loved, would He not come to save him?
Then the unimaginable happened. Lazarus died. Four days after, Jesus showed up and Martha looked at Him and cried out “Lord,” Martha said to Jesus, “if you had been here, my brother would not have died”. The interesting thing to me, however, was that Martha didn’t stop there, she continued and said to Him “But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask.” Question to myself and you: regardless of how long you’ve prayed without result…regardless of how far gone the situation now looks…do you believe that even now God is able to turn it around?
I was still in the car when I realized yet another reference was coming to mind: “Return to your fortress, you prisoners of hope; even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you” Zechariah 9:12. It was there and then that I realized I had strayed, albeit, a little for the sake of “keep an open mind”. LOL. You see before now, I never realized the “even now” phrase in that verse. My emphasis in this verse has always been “prisoners of hope”, but this particular morning without looking at the scriptures, something inside kept reading it aloud to me ‘Return to the stronghold [of security and prosperity], you prisoners of hope; even today do I declare that I will restore double your former prosperity to you’.
While I honestly understand how frustrating and tiring it can get, especially when you have believed and believed and yet the only thing you can show for it are Bible verses 🙂 . Still, I’ll encourage you to return to the stronghold of security and prosperity. Silence your doubts, look up and say “I know I have been waiting for a while for this to happen. But I believe it’s not too late for God to show up. EVEN NOW God can and will turn things around in my favour”. If you believe say “Amen”.